Went to the bar for the first time in a very long time.

Ran into some very very old Bro acquaintances - like, used to hang out and drink with these guys 10 years ago when I was dating an ex, and I maybe see them a few times a year.

So I decided tonight, HEY, I’m going to hang with some bros.  Like, these guys have no concept of gender identity or queerness or radicalism besides WOO OCCUPY WOO, but whatever, I was drinking and was genuinely curious about their current lives, so I sat with them and talked.  Agreed to give them a ride home.

Ended up in an argument and leaving in a huff.  Obviously.  How could this have happened any other way?  I’m quite proud of my total intolerance for the evolutionary psychology and gender roles espoused by bros, but I still wonder at how I became so capable to tell these people to fuck off so strongly.  In public.  Loudly.  Thanks Tumblr.  Tonight was a special night.

Cool

I have a lot of anxiety about writing essays and I procrastinate until the last minute a lot

and this paper I just turned in for English class I was pretty stressed about because I wrote it in one afternoon and didn’t have any one else review it before turning it in

and the professor just sent out a thing about how he can be harsh and very honest with his criticism so we (the students) shouldn’t take his criticism of our essays personally, just follow his suggestions for the second draft

and now I have this HUGE confidence boost because the only thing he marked on my essay was that I formatted it slightly wrong and capitalized a thing that shouldn’t have been capitalized - and his only comment was “This is mostly pretty good.”  No actual criticism.

I am succeeding at schooling.

I am in love with all these odd creatures

My truck is out of the shop and in my hands

So my job today is to joyride, any where, every where, hopefully to the woods

To make sure if something is going to break, it happens near town and not when I’m driving to Seattle next week.

I can’t not eat all the hummus as soon as I buy it.

I don’t even try not to anymore.

School discussion classes about Descartes and how we can use logic to determine what is real or not - and I keep bringing up astrophysics and how even our most basic Laws of Physics may behave differently in extreme space environments like black holes or close to the speed of light or may even be “written” entirely different in another Big Bang were our current universe to implode - and hence how can we know anything as true EVER!!! - and I’m talking about this a lot because I’ve been reading some Carl Sagan books again and it’s fresh in my mind and I’m really excited by these concepts.

But every time I bring this up I get all worried that the other smart kids in the class are rolling their eyes and thinking “She’s just watched What the Bleep do we Know Anyways one too many times.”  It scares me because I really dread being perceived as that person.

Since school started I’ve had no urge to go out drinking.

It’s odd.

I had to have my IUD taken out yesterday because it was slipping and causing pain for the last few weeks and I’m upset because it’s been in for two years without a problem.  But it also feels really good to be able to cough with getting a stabbing pain in my uterus.

Ahhh two days til school starts and 6 days til my fashion thingy and I’m not ready at all at all

I cooked a pot of beans today but they’re waaaaay too salty

So tomorrow I’ll cook another pot of beans, and then combine the two

and Freeze half of it for later eats

I can hear frogs outside!

awwwwwwwwww

the cutest cats are the ones who like to hang out on your lap while you poop

So desperate to find a place that will allow my dogs I’m typing search terms into craigslist wrong on purpose and it worked I actually found a maybe place because the poster spelled the neighborhood wrong

Actually crossing things off my To-Do List today

a first in a long time

Ughs

Having a hard time finding an apartment that will allow a dog over 25 pounds

Harsh